The Sun has been appearing to me in many readings and in my sky. I was confused and not seeing the message as this is generally a card of blessings. But I’ve begun to realize that blessings show up in unexpected ways. The Sun has entered my sphere to show me all of the darkness that I have been ignoring and avoiding. To also shine brighter on the abundance of good in my life. Perhaps I am The Sun shining my own light into murky situations. Using my own reflections to illuminate patterns and connections that are loving and those that no longer serve me. Sometimes what The Sun is illuminating isn’t always pretty, but it is cleansing.
Intimidation is a fear induced survival mechanism. Probably one of the most desperate grasping motions you can make towards a situation that is out of your control. A motion intended to drag down something rising away from you in an attempt to bring it down to keep you company. I understand the desperation that comes from mental illness. When you're in your pit, you cannot see outside of it, only up and possibly out. Some of us learn to climb these walls on our own or ask for someone to throw us a rope. The others, claw at the walls and pull down those offering helpful hands.
If the expectation is that you are clever, you will be sadly disappointed when you're all alone. Your motives are transparent. Begin to notice the bloody claw marks on the walls and the skeletons of those you drained the life from scattered all around you. If you do not, you'll find that you will be reaching up for familiar hands but only catching dead air. Stop being scared of the world above. The Sun here shines in plenty, it illuminates the dark.